VisionFromFeeling Formerly Alenara

Hey Alenara/Heather/Anita whatever your name is.

Maybe it's time to morph into AlienGurl!!! Alenara/VisionfromFeeling are dead horses now. Flogged to death they were.




Farencue said:
The party is over- the guests have gone home, the place is awash with wine spills and reeks of stale cigarette smoke.
The stage is empty, bereft of the people, lights and cameras crowding it. As I stumble around the half dark theatre looking for my dignity, my mind races to come up with the solution to the particular problem I now face.

Although I held the charade all the way through the performance, it was a dismal flop in this neck of the woods.
As I am pondering my dilemma, it becomes clear to me what must now be done.
The caravan should be packed tightly and neatly, supplies gathered for an extended journey, fresh spiels designed and practised. I am ready.


The creaking wheels turn slowly, and as I travel further away from this place, with it's glittering lights and broken dreams, I sit up front with my chin lifted in defiance.
For I know where I must go- without shame or embarrasssment as my companions.
The well paved road of delusional dishonesty will lead me to the kingdom of woo, where I shall find the believers.
I shall sit on the ruby encrusted throne as queen, while my subjects kneel before me. The helpless ones grovel in gratitude at my all knowing, all mysterious, one of a kind powers.

I shall rule the universe with confidence and supreme arrogance as the show that flopped fades away to a never remembered dream.
Click to expand...
 
yairhol said:
I would like to know if you stand behind what has been posted in post #9:

My home world is named Telmaar. I was in equivalent of earth years more than 370 years. Our average life span on that planet is equivalent of 1200 years.
Click to expand...

There was also a post that stated you saying you had knowledge of physics not yet known to us (humans on earth :rolleyes:). Do you stand behind that as well?
Click to expand...
Of course I understand that an identity of a Star Person is not rooted in our society and that it may well be nothing more than a cultural artifact. But for everyone all sense of identity is a unique and individual artificial construct, and probably inspired by many various unaccounted for things along the way. All I know is that that is the person I have ended up being, and it is non-detachable and there is no substitute for it. Even though I am all female, I relate strongly to transgender persons in that they are a person that is not the same as what the body is.

The details around that identity developed gradually over the years. As soon as I learned to speak I described myself as an old woman from another world. As a young child, I would speak for hours about things that would make people tell me it was crazytalk, but today the same things apply very well within optical physics and what bits I do share about today do not seem crazy at all to scientists. I was drawing this person from an early age, and the drawings evolved gradually to account for more detail. They gradually changed from beginning as a somewhat human form to something that does not have ears, eyebrows, or thumbs for instance. Even still today I feel compelled to draw them.

Gradually I came to remember a name associated to that person, but I won't share it with you. I will say however that the names I remember of my Star Person identity and others from that world are highly similar to these. It was a connection I did not make until afterwards, so I was by no means inspired by those names in advance.

As for a white dwarf star behind Arcturus, it comes from feeling it to be so. Interestingly, I never studied astronomy and avoided it best I can because it always brought up what I suppose I could call "Star People feelings" and even into my adult life I had no knowledge of white dwarf stars. All I assumed to know about stars was that they would all be large, hot and red like our sun. Yet in connection to my Star Person identity I had an old small white star about the size of Earth. It was only a few years ago that I found out that such stars do exist.

Interestingly, only about a month ago I bought some books made by various woo authors about supposed Arcturian connections. One of those books mentions a place there called Tomaar - I'll have to look up how they spelled the name later when I have the book again. Interesting I suppose. And I was not inspired by any books when I discovered or invented or which ever it may be, what this identity is.

As for age, I have always felt that I am far older than most people. So, no wonder my boyfriend of four years is 42 years older than me. I relate to seniors, not to 20-year olds.

As for knowledge of physics, I most definitely believe that I have wonderful things to add to the science of light. Based on what I know so far about science from my studies my objective opinion is that my ideas are absolutely amazing and very promising, but of course all woos who think they know something will say that. We'll just have to see what kind of work comes out of my professional career.
 
For sure our identities are constructs but most of us beyond childhood try to build them on a shared sense of reality.
 
orphia nay said:
Why do you want it kept private, if there's "nothing wrong with it"?
Click to expand...
Don't you have private things in your life that there's nothing wrong with at all, just that they are private and personal to you? I am sure you could think of a few things you do when no one is looking. ;)

Audible Click said:
As far as you saying that UY was spying on your Facebook page the answer to that is no, same with your accusation against Bookitty. Now, do you have any other guesses?
Click to expand...
Strange then. A few days ago I found the person who posted the videos on his YouTube account and the only way anyone could have found the connection was if they saw that I added him on my Facebook and looked him up. Unless it was that guy who called me up on Skype today, cause I did tell him a whole lot of things. Although I did tell him that he is probably a government spy - a joke we had going. I'd like to know what those sources are then? Spyware installed into my computer? Do tell. ;)
 
Well VFF, I have to hand it to you, you are very brave to come onto a skeptical forum and claim that you are not only a star person and breatherian but also a skeptic and expect us to believe all of the above.
Sorry, but I am not buying a single word of it.
 
Could someone please translate this for me please. For some reason this VFF post does not make any sense to me, Thank You.


I Am He
 
VisionFromFeeling said:
Don't you have private things in your life that there's nothing wrong with at all, just that they are private and personal to you? I am sure you could think of a few things you do when no one is looking. ;)
Click to expand...

You're equivocating. Why did you say it was embarrassing, even though you'd posted about it on the internet and spoken about it in public, and you continue to speak about it today?

Admit it. It's woo, and unsupported by Science, and you don't really believe those things, but you like to talk about them because they make you feel special.

I haven't had many dealings with you, but it seems you are a liar to yourself, if not to others.
 
VisionFromFeeling said:
What exactly do you think you are? Lancaster? Too bad I'm not Sylvia Browne.
Click to expand...
RSL is a who not a what. After our first private chat I publicly posted that I found you manipulative and flirtatious. I have simply been prudent.

What exactly does that mean? What other person? You document everything? I knew you had a slight obsession.
Click to expand...
I keep records of everything by saving the contents or publicly posting things like when you repeatedly harassed me by phone or continued to send me IMs after I told you not to contact me directly unless through an attorney. When anything happens that I think you could manipulate later, I let others know. That way if you make any attempt to twist things around (which you have done), I will have a record of what was actually said at the time. Thus, if there is any dispute, the tiebreaker is that if *I* was the one lying, then it must be that I set up the lie months in advance in order to use it to refute what *you* claim.

Don't threaten me. You know, threats against other Forum members can get you suspended for some time.
Click to expand...
It's not a threat. It was solid advice. You publicly accused Bookitty of something that she did not do. I have evidence that it is not her. I'm simply doing you a favor. It's not like *I* could do anything to stop you from saying whatever you want.

Don't be ridiculous. This coincided with when I added the person who posted the videos on my Facebook friends.
Click to expand...
And how would I know that? I cannot see your private information. In fact, I cannot even see your public information on Facebook unless I go through a proxy server. I guess FB uses cookies to enforce the blocking settings because even if I click on the Google link for your FB account while signed out, it tells me the page is not found. I have to use a proxy server to see it.

The Starseed84 person who posted the videos was fawning all over you (Google Starseed84 and look at the cached version). For some reason those videos have just been removed. Do you know anything about that?

First, you claimed that I "spied" on your account. Not true. Then you claimed that Bookitty clued me in. Again, that's not true. Why are you assuming that anybody told me about it in the first place? It could be any of your FB friends or friends of friends. You sought publicity, and now you have it. Such is the price of infamy. Or maybe I am just a diligent researcher.

Not irrelevant.
Click to expand...
How is the manner in which I came to know public information you posted on the web relevant to anything we're discussing here?

Simply because it is private.
Click to expand...
You have a tenuous grasp on reality. The web is not private.
 
Last edited:
VisionFromFeeling said:
Don't you have private things in your life that there's nothing wrong with at all, just that they are private and personal to you? I am sure you could think of a few things you do when no one is looking.
Click to expand...

Why, if you considered this "private", did you post about it on the Internet? Interesting that you keep dodging that question. Or do you just not want to admit that you did it for the attention it would bring you?
 
VisionFromFeeling said:
And some of us are a bit different not by choice.
Click to expand...

Regardless of how you express it, I believe you. You feel different and alienated to the point of actually being alien. It doesn't matter if you are star-person or not, these feelings are still there and those feelings are real. That can't be easy.
 
bookitty said:
Regardless of how you express it, I believe you. You feel different and alienated to the point of actually being alien. It doesn't matter if you are star-person or not, these feelings are still there and those feelings are real. That can't be easy.
Click to expand...

I can understand people feeling different from those around them and alienated by society, been there myself. However, most of us don't do lectures around the world about how we are 'aliens' and how that makes us extra-special and more intelligent than the rest of the human race.
 
I Am He said:
Could someone please translate this for me please. For some reason this VFF post does not make any sense to me, Thank You.


I Am He
Click to expand...


Alenara01.jpg
 
You must log in or register to reply here.

Back
Top Bottom