Ok, I know people have been
implying this the whole time, but let's just be blunt here:
Your threads are weird as hell.
I know
I could probably come up with the same sort of comments if I were sufficiently high, but you are likely sober, and that fact alone makes it borderline
worrying.
Let me share something with you: The first time I tried salvia, it was the most frightening experience of my life. It gave me first-person view of falling through my own ego, seeing reality fold in on itself, being unable to distinguish myself from seams in reality, feeling my sense of self expand indefinitely through time and space in a chaotic pattern -- I assure you, it was one of the most intricate horrors I've ever seen, so much that I had nightmares about it for months, and my head bristling with wordless abstract thoughts not unlike the ones you've described.
The key here is understanding that those thoughts don't mean anything. If you dwell on them or try to make sense of them, you're going to find yourself plagued by an uncanny feeling of
derealization.
Try thinking about more cheerful things. Have you seen,
Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs? Have you ever tried to
juggle with your feet?