Hi all,
I want to go through responses more methodically when I have a bit more time.
I first want to thank those who have put the time and effort into actually supplying evidence-based material which helps explain some of this phenomena, especially all the material regarding sleep disorders, as well as explaining some of the real probabilities at play here. This is what I was hoping to find, some backable evidence which supports a material explanation. Something which mitigates my fear that something supernatural was going on.
I also want to address some of my 'critics' on here, namely William Parcher and SezMe, as I feel I have been misunderstood. And to be honest I'm not sure why I'm attracting personal criticism, as all I'm trying to do is put down my experiences in hope of having some truth shed on the matter.
William Parcher / SezMe, what I was trying to convey in my first post is this. I want to believe, and would love to believe, that the material world is all we have. If one could 'choose' what is true, I would 'choose' that reality - that all is material and nothing else. I find it comforting to think nothing else exists, as any unknown realm of supernatural would just complicate things and make the discovery of true meaning virtually impossible. Materialism has been my default position through much of my life. However, these experiences make me worry that something else is going on. They have made me doubt my materialism. If you take the time to read my post, I hope you can appreciate just how TERRIFYING, REAL, SEEMINGLY PREMEDITATED and MIND BOGGLING these experiences have been for me. As I tried to explain in my introduction, I want the material world to be all there is. This is the reality I hope is true. At the same time, what I ultimately WANT to know is the truth, even if it conflicts with what I want reality to be. What a lot of the moral language I was using is about is what I perceived the horrible, terrible 'nightmares' to be (potentially) pertaining to. As I have stated previously, a lot of my experiences are compatible with Catholic church theology about demons, Satan, possession, and homosexuality, and I know a lot about this as I have been schooled as a Catholic and done my own research. Skepticism is not the same as materialism, but most skeptics are probably materialists. No one on here should be poo pooing what I'm recounting merely because it has been a horrendous experience which seems very difficult to be completely illuminated via material explanations.
Anyways I'm not here to argue, I'm here to have some light shed on my experiences.
Anyways, thanks all, I will hopefully get time to more methodically respond soon. It is the early hours of the morning here in Oz.